碎碎念

又开始碎碎念了
感觉最近心好乱啊

so stressed over I don’t even know what and can’t really focus on school work
作业不想做，考试也不想复习，真的很摆烂 and then screw up everything
It’s really bad momentum but I really really don’t know how to fix it
a little bit concerning because this has never happened this frequently in the past
感觉大家都已经设定好了自己下个阶段的目标并很坚定的为之努力着，but I haven’t and 一直在反复横跳，这种急迫感真的很stressful
peer pressure有时候是真的很难抵抗啊，接下来的阶段性目标就是不多关注别人，把重心放在自己身上！
maybe im stretching myself too hard
其实从来都不是个喜欢卷的人，但是看大家都能handle this many things at a time with ease就感觉自己也可以了，哪怕不行也总想再试一试
like I really don’t like giving up, but that’s where all the 纠结和不放过自己 are coming from
情绪内耗然后失去动力和自信真的是件很可怕的事情
最近也思考了很多人生观，家庭，和生活，也回过头去看过小时候的经历，虽然还是没啥头绪，但感觉对自己的认知清晰了一点点
but anyways let embrace myself be my life creed, you are the best and inimitable!