碎碎念

一些突如其来的感想和独白吧，起因来自于前两天在xhs上刷到了一个post
其实是五月份的时候写的, just procrastinated posting it.

Gen1.5，既不算一代也不算二代，多么神奇的一个群体，夹在两个主流的身份认同之中

I never thought I had identity crisis because I always have a clear answer for the question “where are you from”, but I do sometimes get lost and not know where I really belong and where I should head to.

I had the opportunity to be familiarized with 2 completely different cultures but was not immersed deeply enough in either one of them; as a result, I love both cultures, but I don’t feel enough belonging to any of them. The way I value the world is also an actual result of east-western fusion, which furthers the belonging issue.

English is a second language and I’m pretty deeply aware that I can never gain an intuition for this language as how those native speakers do. I can naturally spit out words without having to translate them in my head, but I don’t feel some of the nuances in the language. 有时候甚至会刻意的保持一些both英语和中文的口音。从来都是个热爱文字的人，但说说写些了这么多年英文，却永远不会在字母里感受到母语的亲切回应。而中文又因为长久的不练习而提笔忘字，有的时候真的挺伤感的，

英文不够熟练而中文也在慢慢退化，中英夹杂变成了最舒服的思考和交流方式，而用任何一种单一的语言都需要思考。
Perhaps that’s life. You lose something for everything that you gain. Just a though. 感慨一下罢了。